Tired but not depleated...

I am like a "cat on a hot tin roof"... bouncing off the walls of my body...

I hate change, yet that is what life is every day... change.  It requires of me more that I want to give away right now.  I am into the hidey hole of life and want to do nothing.

Yet... my legs won't quit moving... I can't sit still for more than 3 minutes... Nothing is working to get me some sleep... except sheer exhaustion at 3 a.m. for about 5 - 6 hours and then I'm up and have no focus... can't stay on track... can't remember what I was saying or doing...

So... what is the diagnosis??

I found that flip flops will flip and flop when you are sitting down if you cross your legs and wiggle your foot... click... click.. click... it does nothing to settle me down...

Where do I send my adrenaline when I have to much inside my body and don't feel good enough to use it properly or at all????  So where do I send it??? hm

Talked to my sister yesterday, who by the way is in Florida... (rub it in) Did you know that you can spend days in Orlando going from amusement park to amusement park and the only thing you run out of is $$$$... ?????  I think I will need to visit this state now... when the humidity is low and the gators are asleep!!!

Can you tell I can't concentrate... welcome to my world!!!  I keep bouncing from subject to subject and can't even finish a thought....  UGH...

Missy's Weekend Sleep Over...

Hurrah!!!  We finally connected for a sleep over and play date with Audree...  It's been since late April or early May since we've gotten together. 

Gramma and Poppie hadn't gotten her birthday gift yet... from June 22... so we went shopping and got her a few tops and a sweater for school.  Oh yeah and can't forget the sparkly nail polish...  can we?? 

We met up with her cousins, Adylin, Matthew and Bennett and played at the park across the street from our house.  Then when it got to hot... we all jumped in cars and went to McDonald's to eat lunch and play where it is cool...  Happy Meals and orange soda later... and a pinch from another kid ... and we left after a good couple of hours of play. 

We got home to Gramma's just in time to make beaded bracelets and have a snack... before Ady, Matt and Benno needed to leave and go home. 


Audree was lucky to take 2 nice baths in our garden tub with lots of fun toys.  Then she got dressed and we went to the mall for shampoo for Gramma and time to meet up with Erik.

Over all it was a good time...  Audree has sure grown up and is really trying hard to be a good listener.  Which helps me while she is here.  She got along well with her cousins... was really sweet with Bennett who is a month older than her baby sister.

This is a Mark and Gramma sitting position...crossed legs hm..

Maybe next months visit we can go fishing on Saturday morning... That would be a fun thing to do... Especially if she can catch them... Then she can take them home for dinner... Yippee  it's a plan!!!

It's a new day!! Still August, but a new day!!

OK

It's come and gone... And I survived...  Hurrah!!!

August 10, 2003...

So... Now I move onto the new day... I am ok... I've been a brute for the past 10 days.  The brute is gone... and I'm doing ok... Trying not to feel guilt for not hurting and to say it's a good day. 

September is coming... Things will cool down... The clocks will rotate to the good time once again.  Then I will complain about it being to cold.  I can't get it right... it's either to hot or to cold.  Wish I could find a happy medium and just go with the flow.  not the ice flow or the heat flow... but a nice flow. 

]I was thrilled to get a phone call from my sis... She sure has gone through the mill this past year.  RS camp was a bust... I'm sorry honey!!  Glad your pix's are up and the cactus is home once again.  It will be your place soon...

I will soon be getting a new car... Just a small used one... Guess it's the way things are right now.  I refuse to worry about items I have no personal control over...

I've not had much to photo or otherwise care about. 

When it cools down do you think it will be any different??  Maybe?? Probably?? Not??  haha