My Baby Brother Mark

... MARKIE POO ...

This is like my last real boo boo blog about Mark...

His passing was coming whether I was ready or not...He wasn't feeling very well on February 1, 2009... He told me he was tired and about 9 p.m. he went to bed... He never woke up! We buried him on Friday, Feb. 6 in Rupert, Idaho...

(November 2008 doing the "YMCA")

I can rejoice for him... I can be happy for him... I can also miss him...

He is no longer in pain... his back hurt all the time, his hips hurt, his arms hurt, and he really didn't complain all the time...just when I was tired too LOL...

He is no longer held back by his disabilities...speech, understanding, movements, etc. He is whole and strong... He told me he was going to be tall and have black hair like his dad... I can almost picture him...

I am kinda at a loss... I'm bored, but just a few days ago I was so tired I hurt...so... guess you can't have it all. I have a ton of things to do... no energy to do it... feel pretty lazy... and yet antsy... go figure...

I think the weather is getting me down a bit...the cold and snow and just gunk outside... I am ready for spring and energy and life...

We had a great family reunion with family we hadn't seen in almost 8 years... We ate and visited and just had a great teary party... Of course the tears are not for Mark... they are for us...the ones left here on earth to work on our journey and learn as we go along paths.

I hope to post some pixs soon... Just waiting for someone else to do it heeheehee...

Nah...just time when I do not have little ones around and can leave things out and about as I work on them...

Today Adylin and Matthew got into our See's suckers and hid in the toy room... what pills... I also found the timer hidden in the couch...and let's see... hum... oh yeah more dishes to do piled up with the ones someone dirtied last night...not me...either.

playing broom hockey Nov 2008 with Kade

So...I just need some time without little ones getting into stuff... and when others stop making messes and just leave me to get on with my stuff... haha