Tired but not depleated...

I am like a "cat on a hot tin roof"... bouncing off the walls of my body...

I hate change, yet that is what life is every day... change.  It requires of me more that I want to give away right now.  I am into the hidey hole of life and want to do nothing.

Yet... my legs won't quit moving... I can't sit still for more than 3 minutes... Nothing is working to get me some sleep... except sheer exhaustion at 3 a.m. for about 5 - 6 hours and then I'm up and have no focus... can't stay on track... can't remember what I was saying or doing...

So... what is the diagnosis??

I found that flip flops will flip and flop when you are sitting down if you cross your legs and wiggle your foot... click... click.. click... it does nothing to settle me down...

Where do I send my adrenaline when I have to much inside my body and don't feel good enough to use it properly or at all????  So where do I send it??? hm

Talked to my sister yesterday, who by the way is in Florida... (rub it in) Did you know that you can spend days in Orlando going from amusement park to amusement park and the only thing you run out of is $$$$... ?????  I think I will need to visit this state now... when the humidity is low and the gators are asleep!!!

Can you tell I can't concentrate... welcome to my world!!!  I keep bouncing from subject to subject and can't even finish a thought....  UGH...

Missy's Weekend Sleep Over...

Hurrah!!!  We finally connected for a sleep over and play date with Audree...  It's been since late April or early May since we've gotten together. 

Gramma and Poppie hadn't gotten her birthday gift yet... from June 22... so we went shopping and got her a few tops and a sweater for school.  Oh yeah and can't forget the sparkly nail polish...  can we?? 

We met up with her cousins, Adylin, Matthew and Bennett and played at the park across the street from our house.  Then when it got to hot... we all jumped in cars and went to McDonald's to eat lunch and play where it is cool...  Happy Meals and orange soda later... and a pinch from another kid ... and we left after a good couple of hours of play. 

We got home to Gramma's just in time to make beaded bracelets and have a snack... before Ady, Matt and Benno needed to leave and go home. 


Audree was lucky to take 2 nice baths in our garden tub with lots of fun toys.  Then she got dressed and we went to the mall for shampoo for Gramma and time to meet up with Erik.

Over all it was a good time...  Audree has sure grown up and is really trying hard to be a good listener.  Which helps me while she is here.  She got along well with her cousins... was really sweet with Bennett who is a month older than her baby sister.

This is a Mark and Gramma sitting position...crossed legs hm..

Maybe next months visit we can go fishing on Saturday morning... That would be a fun thing to do... Especially if she can catch them... Then she can take them home for dinner... Yippee  it's a plan!!!

It's a new day!! Still August, but a new day!!

OK

It's come and gone... And I survived...  Hurrah!!!

August 10, 2003...

So... Now I move onto the new day... I am ok... I've been a brute for the past 10 days.  The brute is gone... and I'm doing ok... Trying not to feel guilt for not hurting and to say it's a good day. 

September is coming... Things will cool down... The clocks will rotate to the good time once again.  Then I will complain about it being to cold.  I can't get it right... it's either to hot or to cold.  Wish I could find a happy medium and just go with the flow.  not the ice flow or the heat flow... but a nice flow. 

]I was thrilled to get a phone call from my sis... She sure has gone through the mill this past year.  RS camp was a bust... I'm sorry honey!!  Glad your pix's are up and the cactus is home once again.  It will be your place soon...

I will soon be getting a new car... Just a small used one... Guess it's the way things are right now.  I refuse to worry about items I have no personal control over...

I've not had much to photo or otherwise care about. 

When it cools down do you think it will be any different??  Maybe?? Probably?? Not??  haha

How do you spell...

D E P R E S S I O N !!!

Today just seems to be that kind of day... 

It shouldn't be... but it is.

Dark days...even with the hot sun shining down on my head...

It is usually darkest just before dawn... so I am guessing dawn is coming...

It's pretty hot... but July usually is.  

We are within the temps for normal.  

100 degrees F. means it's summer... 

And I do love summer (not).

Guess I will take a nap and hope that it improves my mood somewhat.  

If not, then I feel sorry for those that I live with... 

cuz' Oscar the Grouch has nothing on me when I'm out of sorts.

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Camping July 10

We decided to go camping with Holly and family and Davis' cousin Mike Anderson and his family.  Then we decided to just go up for the day.  Do some fishing and eating and enjoy the kids a bit and then come home and sleep in our own beds...

Holly and Davis asked if we could be ready at 7 a.m. to leave... They had a few mishaps the night before and were running a bit later than that.  After running the last of the errands and getting gas... we were ready to go.  We were not quiet sure where we were headed... so we stayed fairly close to them on the road.  We ended up Ogden Canyon along the North Fork out of Liberty, UT.  

Mike and Mindy have the cutest kids.  Kaitlyn is about 3 and Josh is about 10 months.  Linda, Mike's sister was staying with them for the week so she got to come along.  They also brought up the best looking firewood I've seen in a long time.  Reminded me of the wood we used in Bishop to keep us warm at night all winter long.  Pretty and split and nice...

The 2 babies... Bennett and Joshy...  Bennett played with Josh very well... Hopefully this means he will be a good big brother this winter...


Mike, Al, Davis, Tanner, Matt, Ady and I went fishing for a while.  Tanner got to see what the bottom of the lake looked like while we were at South Fork.  He fell into the water fully clothed and wasn't sure if he should drop his pole and tackle box or swim... While he was thinking about it...Davis took a quick dive into the water to pull him out and save his other shoe which came off during the dip.  

 I missed all the excitement trying to figure out what I wanted to carry from the van to the fishing spot they picked out.  It was straight down the side of a hill with only a 2 foot lip to fish from... After Tanner's quick swim... the thought of Ady and Matt going in was a bit to much for me... So I took them to the van and we watched a movie and went potty a few times.  About 4 p.m. we took off for camp hoping that the guys were soon to follow... NOT... they showed up at 7 p.m. with a few more fish and tired out... Both Davis and Tanner were dry by then and all were hungry.

 

Big mistake asking Ady to say, "Cheese"... haha... she wanted to take an adventure with me and needed to have her picture taken with the pretty yellow flower...
Good choice chickie girl!!

 

Linda was very cute.  Helping with the fire and food... Filling in with kids as needed... and just a good all around helper!!  She played with Tanner or was that teasing??  Took a small walk with the girls... and at one point the 3 girls were in the hammock... telling a story about the ladybug that needed to go home to it's family... But we were not quick enough to grab that shot... but it was a very sweet moment.

 

Didn't I tell you about Bennett and the table???  Well... here he is again on the top of it.. I think he fell a few times and was caught a few times before taking a dangerous dive... or two!!

Meanwhile back at camp, Holly, Mike, Mindy, and the 3 kids including Bennett... took naps and played some games.  We got back just in time to help with dinner.  I being the super Gramma that I am, took the little buggars into the van for a few adventures and another movie or two.  Matt was the driver, while Bennett just ran around dumping soda and eating bits and pieces of candy floating around.  We were in the magic van for an adventure.  It took us flying all over. 

Did you know you could ride a tent??  Well, this little 20 month old tried just about everything he could on this trip to have fun... even if it was of his own making.  Cute too!!

The chicken was frying in a dutch oven... the baked beans were started... had to wait for Davis to come back with the dough for the cheese rolls...  No I didn't take any photos of the food... dang it... but it was yummy... no rolls left... a few pieces of chicken and we ate most of the beans. 

Kaitlyn and Bennett (Davis holding one end and me holding the other) play napping in the hammock...  They all played with this, a few bruises later...

Ady, Matt, Bennett and Kaitlyn playing in the hammock... it was a good toy to take... 

Holly and Mindy... and a few smiles... Lunch was cooking and we were chillin...

If you turned your head for one minute this is where you found Bennett... Sitting on the table snacking on food.  This is lunch... hot dogs cooked over an open fire, fresh off the stick LOL

The big tent... fits many!!!  Not a pop up like the Williams tent... that is on the wish list I think... maybe after the dutch oven wish list is completed..

Mike, Al and I left before the apple crisp was done... We had almost a 2 hr drive home and didn't want it to be pitch black when we left. 






Matt was into using his staff... then Kaitlyn got into the fray... along with Ady... I on the other hand used my walking stick.  Yes, that is a point, but we were careful to watch them as they were walking with their staffs... someone in the movies has one??? Avatar?? or the last airbender or something?? Hm...





















I think a good time was had by all... Here are a few of the pictures I got... Enjoy!!